Welcome! Selamat datang!
This is my forte. I shall write what I want, post thoughts, inspirations, pretty much anything that comes to my mind.
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Minggu, 20 Oktober 2019
the chemical we pursue @ 08.37
one day, as a resultant of observing the odd behaviours of the lovebirds around me, one question popped on my mind
"why on earth would someone do so such, illogical, extra, things, for their significant other? how is that possible? where do their common sense go? what is obscuring their sense of judgement?"
day by day i seek answer from the nook and cranny of my mind, asking people who had done that, asking people who never did that, asking the skeptical and the romantics, but no answer satisfy me
until one day,
the answer suddenly hits hard
because by doing so, they are happy, such acts make both parties --or at least one, happy
and, tell me, what do people seek in life, again?
then i smile, because of my misjudgement
and because
the answer is actually
that simple, indeed
Senin, 28 Mei 2018
Crystalized Words #1 @ 06.45
"God has given you gifted mind, and you have to use that for your people." E.H.
"Saya nggak takut kok...saya kan mau sembuh." An elderly patient before anesthesia procedure.
"Ini adek kalau ditanya cita-cita, kepingin jadi dokter....kaya tante dokter ya..." A patient's mother.
"Maaf lho ya..tapi biasanya ibu kalau ditensi di kaki memang lebih tinggi dari di lengan.." A patient's guardian, a teacher.
"Aku nggak deket sama siapa-siapa di sini, haha." E.A. I have to greet him when I pass by him next time.
"Kalian harus bisa ya ini, ini 4A."
"Terima kasih/Makasih/Matur nuwun nggih mbak/dok.." :) Never failed to lift gloomy clouds and curve lips up.
Rabu, 31 Januari 2018
to be at peace @ 18.45
for the last block at the end of last year of undergraduate medical studies in my school, you are allowed to choose two different blocks of your interest. one of the two blocks that i took is called "psychosomatic medicine".
one day, the doctor told us this (if i'm not mistaken);
"the opposite of sadness is not happiness, its the absence of sadness ;
the opposite of happiness is not sadness, its anxiety ;
the opposite of love is not hate, its indifference"
with the help of this tweet
but this time i will focus on the second line. does the state of anxiety-free means happiness? does being anxious means you're not happy? i believe one way to reach happiness is to be free from anxiety. (remember, its just one of thousand ways to be happy). and in order to be free from anxiety, you must surrender. yep, to surrender.
let's first talk about anxiety. the feeling of anxious, forms because of we are worried of what will happen next. because of the unknown and the uncertainty. we bite our fingers, trying to calm our fastening heartbeat, and wipe the sweat off of our forehead. it surely is not a comfortable feeling.
how do we escape from the trap of such feeling? islam -the religion that i inshaAllah wholeheartedly follow- offers a very charming solution. that is to surrender. surrender yourself to God. the word "islam" itself actually means to surrender. we, mere human being, put ourselves under the will's of God, for Allah is the one who knows best for us all.
there are many verses in the Quran that remind and guide us to do so. examples are below :
credit as tagged
and there's one personal fav quote from Imam Shafi'i
what we can do as a mere human being is that we have to do the best out of ourselves, pray a lot and then let the rest be upon Allah's will. for Allah is our creator, and our creater surely knows what best for us more than ourselves, right? and after that, you'll probably taste the sweetness of iman filling your souls. and, unconsciously, your lips curved into a smile, finding yourself is at peace --and happy.
Kamis, 04 Mei 2017
note-to-self @ 05.29
Here's a scribble of my brain-note when I attended a very inspiring talkshow weeks ago. Thought that imma put it here so that I can share to you guys and we can remember it for a lifetime...
1. Research = re search re search re search = do as best as you can, even when you feel like you're on the verge of the edge of the world and the world is better to swallow you whole
2. Persistent is the key
3. Honesty above all conditions, wherever you are, whatever you face
4. When your research results turns out to be against your hypothesis, after all your blood sweat and tears, it's still a precious result and worth written and published
5. Big things need big sacrifices
6. Opportunity doesn't knock twice, take it or regret it
Label: life
Minggu, 16 Oktober 2016
a summer heartbreak @ 01.03
It was an afternoon in the middle of August, the 16th day to be exact, when tears uncontrollably flowing down her cheeks, making a streamline. Maybe the quote was true, she thought as her right hand waving bidding goodbyes to most beloved friends, that airports witness more sincere kisses than wedding halls.
The next consecutive three days were awful, all she did were sleeping and rolling in her bed doing nothing. She rewound Doraemon Stand by Me, My Neighbor Totoro original soundtrack over and over and over, letting the resonance of the sound filled in her ear, to the lungs, slipped into her soul, and glided out as tears . Her appetite was gone. Her body was there, but her mind traveled across the country. The slight mention of 'Japan' was very sensitive.
She didn't understand the heavy feeling in her chest. It was her first time feeling that kind of way, and it consumed her whole. Little did she know, it was a
h e a r t b r e a k
"you look like someone who just had a break-up" the line said by a friend in the airport now made sense to her. this is a heartbreak. at nineteen years old, she tasted it. she didn't even taste it when things with her crush didn't work out years ago, or when her so called best-friend stabbed her in the back. her heart crumbled and shattered, and she took a deep breath, expanding her lungs, trying to be the big girl who accept the reality. she giggled, recalling the way she used to wonder and laugh at people who act like a living dead-man when they are breaking up with their sweethearts. the cycle of life indeed teaches a lesson or two.
Days by days passed, she ate curry and ramen with friends, video-called the long-distance friends, listened to Doraemon and Totoro without tears, reminisced the amazing seven-days with a smile.
To all my long-distance Kago friends, thanks for all the amazing memories we made. Hopefully we can meet again, someday, somewhere, in this big world, as soon as possible :)
Minggu, 21 Februari 2016
harga diri dan keluasan hati @ 04.10
Kejadian ini sudah hampir berumur tiga minggu, namun perasaan aneh seperti campuran menyesal-dan-bersalah masih terasa menggelayuti hati.
Ketika itu, aku sedang membantu Mama menjadi kasir toko kelontong, menggantikan karyawan yang keluar dari pekerjaan. Tak kunjung juga mendapat pengganti yang ideal, aku putuskan untuk mengorbankan beberapa hari liburanku untuk "part-time" di sana. Walau nggak digaji hahaha *tertawa getir*
Malam sekitar jam 7, ada seorang mahasiswi masuk ke toko dan berkata ingin membeli galon. Uang kembalian dan tisu basah aku serahkan. Si pembeli kemudian mengembalikan galon kosong, lalu sambil lalu berkata "Mba nanti bisa angkatin ke motor saya?"
Akum diam bergeming, setengah kesal dan setengah lagi mengingat asas pembeli adalah raja. Aku kan bukan karyawan di sini?! Sial, bahkan di rumah saja aku nggak mengangkat galon sendirian. Aku mulai merasa harga diriku jatuh, jatuh ke bawah, lalu diinjak.
Melihat ini Mama berkata padaku, "kalau nggak mau nggak usah gapapa."
Tapi entah apa yang mendorongku toh aku akhirnya mengangkat galon itu dan mebawanya ke motor si pembeli, sambil mengomel sendiri.
Aku bertanya ketus, "mau ditaruh berdiri atau tidur?"
"Terserah aja gimana mba"
Damn, why asked me, I dont know! kesal bergumul dalam hati.
Akhirnya aku taruh galonnya dalam posisi tidur.
Si pembeli kemudian berucap, "Maaf ya mba ngerepotin, makasih."
Aku ngeloyor pergi tanpa membalas ucapan terima kasih itu.
Lalu mendadak aku teringat cerita Sri Sultan Hamengku Buwono ke-IX, di mana beliau pernah dikira kuli angkut di pasar oleh seorang ibu. Baginda Sultan tidak meralat dan tidak merasa direndahkan, ia ringan hati membantu mengangkut belanjaan si ibu. Ketika Baginda sudah pergi, si ibu baru mengetahui siapa kuli angkut ini sebenarnya. Pingsanlah si ibu.
Baginda Sultan saja tidak merasa keberatan melakukan pekerjaan seperti itu, lalu mengapa aku merasa tinggi hati? Hal itu tidak mengurangi harkat martabat dirinya, malah menambah rasa hormat rakyat Yogyakarta terhadapnya.
Ya Allah, ajari aku untuk lebih mengerti dengan harga diri dan tambahkanlah keluasan hati.
Jumat, 09 Oktober 2015
take it as a lesson @ 18.47
Hello, the wonderful people of the internet.
It's been so long since the last time I drop by here, and yeah I think I always go here whenever I am super sad or want to let go of a burdening feeling in my heart. Ha.
So how y'all doing, peeps? How's the weather in the city that you're living in? Here in Yogyakarta, the weather is still hot and dry, eventhough it's October already. I hope that rain will fall soon.
I am now on my second year in the medical school, still quiet a long way til I get the M.D. title, yes. two days ago I just had my block examination. The result...............was awful. Really awful. I don't even want to talk about it when my parents asked me about my exam result. I averted my gaze down, avoiding eye contact.
"Is it that bad?" asked Mom.
"Yeah, it is."
I don't know what went wrong with my studying style. I think I've studied hard enough, prayed enough and memorize enough material to get at least a 70, but turned out...........nah.
Maybe, that's the thing. I already felt "enough" and be content with it. I didn't strive for more.
They say that kerja keras tak pernah mengkhianati.
Maybe, that's the thing. I didn't studied hard enough. I only studied for like the last 5 days before the D-day. Fellows were probably already experiencing lack of sleep since day 1 when the block started.
I was quite depressed with my score even after I watched The Martian in cinema with tutor-mates. But suddenly, last night, this hit me.
Maybe this is the way Allah tells me to be humble, not to be easily satisfied with my work. Maybe Allah enforced me to take revenge in the next block, or to get me work in a competition, or in other part of life.
Well, maybe this post sounds like an excuse to my awful score but
one thing is
I do belive
that God knows best
:)
Senin, 17 Agustus 2015
That Little Thing @ 07.01
Funny, huh, how a small tiny little thing located in your limbic system, the middle part of your brain, called f e e l i n g can make your body physiology not functioning normally?
My appetite has been switching from hungry-not hungry-super hungry-i can ear nothing for 2 days from time to time. Sometimes my heart skips a beat or two, or slowing down it beats, or aching. One time I feel like the happiest person on earth, and another time I feel like crying a river.
But suddenly I remember, one of the hypothesis how the circuit of Papez works, (pardon me I forgot whom invented the hypothesis),
"smile, then you'll be happy ; cry, then sadness is what you'll get"
Rabu, 18 Maret 2015
We Born Alone and We Die Alone @ 07.08
Pagi ini ketika sedang dalam perjalanan menuju kuliah, di perempatan MM UGM, aku melihat sepasang kakek nenek renta menyebrang jalan yang penuh dengan banyak kendaraan berlalu. Sepasang renta tersebut saling bergandeng tangan, nampaknya sang kakek agak mengalami kesulitan melihat karena langkahnya tertatih dan tidak semantap langkah nenek. Melihat pemandangan itu, rasanya hatiku tergerus.
Teringat tentang status di media sosial yang dibuat oleh kakak kelas waktu SMA, semakin banyak angka yang melambangkan lama kehidupan kita, semakin sedikit teman yang kita punya. Aku setuju dengan pendapat ini. Otakku langsung memutar memori ketika SD, di mana teman-teman sekelas akan selalu bermain bersama ketika istirahat, pun ketika main di luar sekolah juga bermain ramai-ramai. Therefore, aku tidak pernah merasa sepi. Ketika SMP dan SMA juga, selalu ada teman untuk diajak bermain bareng-bareng. Aku tidak pernah benar-benar menghargai, menyadari betapa valuablenya hal ini hingga aku duduk di bangku kuliah. Di bangku kuliah, kehidupan pertemanan tidak sama lagi. I am sorry I've taken your presences for granted, dear old mates.
Sepasang renta tua yang bergandengan tangan menyebrang jalan pun mengingatkanku pada hal ini, we born alone and we die alone. Kita bertemu, kita berteman, kita menyayang, karena jalan takdir kita berpapasan satu sama lain. Jadi, hargai, syukuri, segala hal yang kamu punya sekarang, kamu tidak tahu akan kehilangan mereka kapan. Bisa jadi satu jam lagi, satu hari lagi, satu windu lagi. You don't know what you;ve got, til its gone.
Jumat, 09 Januari 2015
satu delapan : refleksi dua kosong satu empat @ 05.06
Menjadi delapan belas adalah simbol kedewasaan.
Sudahkah? Pantaskah?
Dokter gigi saya, sering sekali berkomentar, "kamu tuh sudah kuliah gini lho kok masih kayak anak-anak."
Hm. Celetukan itu membawa saya ke palung renungan yang dalam. Yang ia katakan ada benarnya juga. Saya sudah bisa apa sih di usia lewat akil baligh ini?
Harry Potter, di usianya yang ketujuh belas berhasil menumbangkan Pangeran Kegelapan, Voldemort.
Saya, di penghujung usia tujuh belas, berhasil menumbangkan dua buah tabung reaksi di laboratorium biokimia fakultas.
Pencapaian saya di usia 17 tahun, atau sama dengan pencapaian saya di 2014, tidak banyak. Ada capaian pendidikan, ada capaian olah raga. Capaian rohani juga insya Allah saya dapat, dengan menjadi lebih dekat dengan Allah. Saya rasa seiring dengan bertambahnya umur, seseorang memiliki tendensi untuk lebih giat mendekatkan diri dengan Tuhannya. Atau, itu hanya terjadi di lingkungan pergaulan saya?
Maka, di tahun 2015 ini saya harap saya bisa menggapai lebih banyak lagi mimpi-mimpi yang bergantungan di langit. Satu yang saya garis bawahi, harus melihat dunia luar! Exchange, backpack, summer course, semua, you name it. Dilematis juga sih, saya sadar bahwa kehidupan perkuliahan sangat amat menyita waktu dan......jika saya menundanya, well, mau jadi dokter berapa tahun lagi? :(
So, hello adventurous year, welcome 2015!
Jumat, 21 November 2014
Learning Medicine! @ 04.25
Hello, people of the internet :) Long time no write in this lil shrine of mine. Many things happened while I wasn't here. Wait, lemme check the date of my last entry. Holy, it was July! Meep!
I've graduated from high school and now continuing my study in the Medicine Faculty of UGM. It's a long story, actually, until I finally settled my heart to finally choose this major. At first, I wholeheartedly, passionately, wanted to take urban and regional planning as the first option for the SNMPTN college entrance test. But somehow, in the very last remaining days, it turned the other way around. I chose medicine as the first option :") But, I am not go linger in this topic any longer :p
So, I am thinking of filling this blog more about my journey in the medical world. It has been 12 weeks since the new student orientation ended, do I enjoy my new chapter of life? Stay tune for more! *gets bricked*
P.S. Sorry I don't know what happen to my writing style.............it has become rotten :(
Label: life
Sabtu, 28 Juni 2014
a year ago in summer @ 20.46
It was 6.30 a.m. in the morning, me and Gandhes had finally got into the travel after the long chasing travel journey because we were late from the travel's schedule. But finally we made it yay! Alia had waited inside the travel. We were going to go Alia's hometown, Pacitan!
Pacitan is a small seaside-town. The town is famous for its numerous caves hence the "Pacitan Kota 1001 Goa", and also beaches and fresh seafoods!! To reach there from Yogyakarta, we have to go up and down the rocky tall limestone hills, shady woods, and sometimes damaged muddy roads. I did enjoy the ride. When we almost reach the town, the road gets more meander it started to be a little bit scary. Going down from the top of the hill, one could see the town from above, and the view was smashing! Too bad I couldn't take good pics because the ride was really shaky.
We reached Alia's house roughly at 10 a.m. She has a big and nice house. And the cool thing is this view was taken from her backyard!
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| jawdropping, i am totally envious |
In the afternoon, we went to the Teleng Ria Beach by bike, it's just a 15 minute ride from Alia's house. On the way, the first thing I realized was the town is all surrounded by limestone mountains and hills. Like wherever you direct your gaze, you'll gonna see hills and mountains. Such a refreshment for the Yogyakartan eyes. I really enjoyed our ride there for I hardly ever did this kind of thing. Biking on a small town is lovely; there aren't as much vehicles as there are in Yogyakarta, and the streets feel bigger and safer, and when riding near small canals one could breathe in the smell of laundry soaps and wild bushes and weeds and typical flowers that grow along the canals. Mmm. Moreover it was drizzling that time. Parfait.
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| at teleng ria |
Teleng Ria is a town-beach (this is my own term xD ). The beach has dark-colored sand and as usual thing here, its also surrounded by hills except for the center of veryyyyy end of our eye-sight. There's none. I think this place at sunset/sunrise would make a great shot! There was only a few number of people playing around when we got there. It was a little bit raining so we didn't stay there for a long time.
On the second day we went to Tamperan beach and visit the harbor. This time we were accompanied by Alia's friend.
The scenery is super beautiful and it makes me reallllly excited to turn the scenery photos into postcards!
On the 3rd day we went to Klayar beach and Gong cave with Alia's mom. You haven't been to Pacitan if you haven't visited those sites they said ;)
We had our breakfast, pecel pincuk, there. Oh I forgot to mention! In Pacitan they always serve "tiwul", a product of cassava, as companion or even substitution for rice. Local people like them big time.
After that we went to Gong cave! Because we didn;t take any decent pictures so I won't be posting any pics hehe. On the way home there's this peculiar thing happened. We stopped for awhile to visit this small cave beside the road called "Salak Cave". There was no one there at that time, and our driver led us to the path downward to enter the cave. The cave looked scary and I didn't have the guts to follow lmao so I waited up there beside the car. At first, everything seemed normal until suddenly a smell of jasmine flower suddenly filled up the air. And there's something flashing and flying shortly inside the cave. Alia's mom, Alia, Gandhes, and mas Driver quickly ran and hiked up to where I sat down. We quickly jumped into the car. They told me that there was a silver bird suddenly flying and flashing white light in the cave and there was a quick movement and mas driver who has this "special ability" said the spirit who lived in the cave was a woman and she'd like to be acquainted with mas driver since he is the only man. O......kay.
Then we had lunch with Alia's family near the beach. Yay for fishes!!! And on the way home we paid a visit to the Pacitan's famous mosque. The mosque was stunning.
We stayed for a few hours in Alia's house and at 3 pm the travel has picked us up to go back to Jogja.
So long, Pacitan!
Rabu, 26 Februari 2014
RABU KELABU @ 01.28
What to do when you probably had one of the worst day of your life?
Today couldn't have been worse.
>=[
Jumat, 14 Februari 2014
Feels like a 2010 throwback @ 20.39
Yesterday, 14th February 2014, I woke up to Mom shouting "Whoa! It's pouring volcanic ashes again!"
I didn't even bother to wake up. It's still dark outside, I thought it was still 4 am or something. Minutes later, I checked the clock on the wall. Wait, what, 5.30 am??
Then I came out of the master bedroom to pray Subuh and to continue my sleep in my bedroom. Walking upstairs, I decided to open the front door. Much to my surprise everything outside is covered in white!
Merapi again?
"Mom~~! Is it from Merapi again?"
"No, it;s Kelud!"
"What is Kelud?"
Remember, I'm not a morning person, I still wasn't in my right mind so I thought Kelud is a javanese term for "mountain".
"Mom what is Kelud?"
"Kelud is Kelud!"
Then somehow I realized that Kelud is a mountain in East Java. Somehow. I didn't even remember how did I know about it. Maybe Mom told me. Or maybe I saw that on TV 5 minutes ago.
Soooo, to capture the moment I decided to make a video!
Click click click!!
Label: life
Senin, 25 November 2013
number of life @ 03.29
This morning in the car, while driving my mom asked me, "Geegee, what do you want for your birthday?"
The question hit me. Gosh I totally forgot my birthday is coming.......and here comes the realization....
I'm going to be 17 soon.
I don't like getting reminded that I'm going to reach the age I could only dream when I was a child back then. No. No. I don't like the number 17. It screams sounds like responsibility, burden, grown up, no more child stuff, and being an adult. When you reach that age it seems like everybody will expect you to be more this.... more that...... more dadidoo... and I....am afraid.
Don't get me wrong, I still want to continue my life in this world. If only I could be forever answer sixteen every time a how-old-are-you question is thrown.
Label: life
Sabtu, 27 April 2013
Of Why You Shouldn't Wait Idols at Arrival Gate @ 05.32
Kemarin (26/4) casts dan crews variety show anyar keluaran SBS, Barefoot Friends, terbang melewati lautan dari Seoul ke Jogja. KYAAAAA YOON SHI YOON. Oke, kalem.
Jadi siapa aja artis korea yang dateng ke Jogja? Ada Kim Hyung Joon, yang jadi Jihu aka cowok (sok) cool di drama Boys Before Flowers. Ada Yoon Shi Yoon aka si gantengimutcetarunyuidamansemuaibu-ibu yang jadi Kim Tak Gu, di Baker King. Ada UEE After School. Dan terakhir, korean national MC, Kang Hodong.
Baru aja sebulan yang lalu aku maraton nonton Baker King, dan selama seminggu dikit-dikit pasti ngomongin Baker King. Sampe orang-orang pada jeleh. Aku kagum banget sama sosok Kim Tak Gu, dia inspiratif banget. Ah pokoknya kalian semua harus nonton <3
Eh terus dia mau dateng ke Jogja. Gimana ga excited.
Jadi kemarin Jum'at sore aku, Nisa, Alia berangkat ke Adisucipto, janjian juga sama Desta dan Denish. Sampe sana setengah empat beuh udah rame baaaaanget di depan arrival gate. Udah pada bikin barisan gitu, dengan garis tengah bolong buat jalan orang-orang dari gate arrival. Kita langsung join di barisan itu. Terus kan yang lain pada teriak-teriak ya ampun kaget kirain artisnya udah dateng, aku langsung lari ke dekat kaca, berusaha cari tahu treus tanya bapak-bapak yang baru dateng yang juga terlongo-longo ngapain orang-orang teriak,
"Pak, tadi habis flight? Barusan ini? Dari Jakarta?"
"Iya."
"Wah, bapaknya naik apa pak?"
"Saya naik Garuda."
"Tadi ada orang-orang Korea ngga pak di pesawatnya?"
"Tadi ada orang-orang Korea ngga pak di pesawatnya?"
"Ga ada tuh mba, ini lagi pada nungguin orang Korea?"
Zing. Terus mereka neriakin apa? Wallahualam.
Kejadian yang sama terulang beeeerkali-kali, sampe mampus. Terus pas udah jam 6 setengah 7 an malem aku dan Desta memutuskan untuk balik dulu ke rumah Desta buat mandi (iya, mandi itu penting) karena next arrival Garuda jam 19.45. Dengan berat hati kita ninggalin posisi kita yang udah strategis dan melangkah keluar.
Tapi, pas mau jalan ke parkiran, kerumunan yang ada di depan Blue Sky (lounge buat pintu keluar VIP) heboh teriak-teriak. Waduh, aku sama Desta langsung lari-lari ke sana. Diseru-seruin sama orang-orang, hih. Ternyata oh ternyata, beberapa kru SBS telah tiba! Yeeaaaay! Orang-orang makin excited, makin padat, makin desek-desekan. Terpaksa aku mundur dan menginjak tanaman. Maaf ya, tanaman :( Aku dan Desta terjebak di tengah-tengah ga bisa keluar. Tapi posisi kita agak tinggi jadi direct view ke pintu lumayan jelas. Lalu salah satu kru masuk ke dalam bus pariwisata yg ada di sekitar situ, dia membereskan segala seuatunya, menyetok vitamin water dan pocari sweat, menyemprot pewangi, dll. Tiap kru masuk keluar Blue Sky, para fans setia langsung siap siaga, ambil posisi kalau-kalau artisnya keluar.
Sampe suatu saat, bus pariwisatanya mulai bergerak ke arah luar. Woah sebagian fans langsung lari ke arah parkiran mobil dan bus yang lumayan jauh, sebagian lagi tetap bertahan menunggu, sebagian lagi bingung harus ngapain.
Aku dan Desta awalnya mau ngejar bus, tapi baru jalan sedikit kita liat ada kru kameramen SBS di dekat taman. Nah, langsung deh kita nyamperin dan berusaha menggali informasi lalu para fangirl-fangirl lain pun mengerubungi kita. Dia sempet ngomong sesuatu yg merupakan petunjuk darimana artis akan datang tapi..... kita ga bisa nangkep kalimatnya. Soalnya ga jelas sih. Pas minta diulangin dia ga mau. Okeh fine, aku dan Desta nunggu di situ beberapa saat. Terus kru tadi mulai nyetel2 kameranya dan ngarahin ke arah Blue Sky. Wadududuh. Jangan-jangan artisnya mau keluar lewat situ.
Kita jalan lagi ke arah Blue Sky, cari posisi pewe. Terus tiba-tiba kita dapet ide buat nulis surat ke Yoon Shi Yoon lewat kru yang tadi. Hohoho. Desta ngeluarin sketch book A4 nya dan penciltic. (jangan tanya aku, di tasku ga ada alat tulis lmao anak sekolah macam mana). Isinya suratnya menurutku undecent banget dari segi kerapian. Ampun namanya juga dadakan. Kita balik lagi ke tempat kru dan minta tolong ke dia, waaaa dia bilang dia bisa. Aku reflek bungkuk sedikit sambil bilang kamsahamnida! dan aku senang sekali! semoga sampai ke yoon shiyoon amin.
Kita memutuskan untuk sholat dulu saja dan malah bertemu dengan Nisa, Alia, Denish. Ternyata mereka juga udah kabur dari antrian xD setelah sholat kita cari-cari minum dulu, persediaan minum kita habis. Astaga semua aqua di situ 7000 -.- waktu nemu aqua yang 2000 seneeeeng banget tapi ternyata aqua gelas. Zong. Ada yang nyaranin ke circle K aja ya udah kita ke sana dan badala harga aqua yang gede cuma lima rebong hahaha asek dah. Kita balik lagi ke arrival gate yg domestic karena udah rame-rame teriak-teriak heboooooh banget desek-desekannya brutal. Huh, untung kita bisa dapet tempat yg depan jalan orang lewat, Pikir kita waktu itu. Kita menunggu, menunggu, sampe sudah lumayan banyak kru yang dateng tapi mana ini artisnya?
Aku dan Desta memutuskan untuk ngikutin salah seorang kru yang kaya Yoo Jaesuk versi muda. Dan ha. Gotcha. Mereka lewat bawah tanah buat ke parkiran bis. Di sana ternyata ada banyak bis buat SBS! 15 shuttle bus, 2 bus pariwisata, dan 2 mobil box buat perlengkapan. Wuih. Mana nih Yoon Shiyoon? Oh la la, ternyata para artisnya langsung naik bus dari tangga pesawat. How great.
Satu shuttle bus jalan, beberapa fans yang di situ langsung lari entah ngejar langsung atau ambil kendaraan dulu lalu ngeeeeeng ngebut ngikutin shuttle bus. Sasaeng fans versi kere.
Karena udah jam 9, aku dan Desta memutuskan buat pulang aja. Huh kagol banget ga ketemu Yoon Shiyoon, tapi ya seenggaknya kita belajar banyak hari ini :)
Biar ga banyak orang yang kecelik kayak aku, berikut tipsnya (sok profe) :
1. Jangan nunggu di arrival gate kecuali itu bandara yang luas. (Adisucipto termasuk bandara yang kecil mungil).
2. Jangan percaya dengan omongan petugas di sana. Itu bualan supaya airportnya sepi dan ga susah diatur. Haha.
3. Jika kru sudah mulai berdatangan, langsung ikutin mereka.
4. Berbincanglah dengan kru. SKSD dikit dong. (kemampuan bahasa korea minim bukan masalah)
5. Pintar-pintar memutar akal membaca situasi dan menembus celah.
6. Jika kemampuan stalkingmu masih ecek, jangan ke bandara, ga bakal ketemu artisnya :)
Senin, 18 Maret 2013
that kind of stuff @ 07.51
umurku enam belas tahun. dan selama enam belas tahun masa kehidupan itu, aku telah mengarungi berbagai fase-fase, seiring dengan berubah-ubahnya preferensi, kesehatan jiwa raga, pun kewarasan otak.
sejauh yang dapat kuingat, aku mulai memiliki preferensi sendiri dalam mixing and matching clothes dari kelas 3 SD. waktu itu, gaya yang kusenangi adalah gaya casual, boyish, dan, mama 90 % tidak setuju dengan pilihan-pilihanku. seringkali aku mengenakan baju-baju pilihan mama dengan setengah hati. tapi ada satu momen yang kuingat, mama membelikanku wristband warna merah muda dengan emboss adidas, dan wristband juventus untuk adikku. wah, kalau pakai itu, aku merasa jadi orang paling keren sedunia.
lalu, waktu aku kelas 4 SD, aku ingat sekali, papa menyuruhku berganti pakaian untuk menjemput mama. aku memilih kaus warna biru muda, deker ungu, kerudung hijau, dan celana jins. don't laugh. aku merasa keren sekali waktu itu, dan aku bangga akan pilihanku. ((oh man i have no shame orz))
kemudian, aku memasuki kehidupan sekolah menengah pertama. waktu itu, aku masih menggandrungi grup band Inggris, Muse. aku memotong rambutku cepak, senang dengan baju-baju berwarna gelap, dan sneakers! aku menjadi seorang anak tomboi yang sedikit demi sedikit terkikis kelembutan perangainya, dan cuek. oh sungguh, aku rasa Muse did have some part of responsibilities here. kemudian, di kelas 8 aku berteman dengan seorang anak yang sangat, sangat, sangat tomboi. rasa-rasanya ia ingin melawan kodrat. sedikit banyak aku terpengaruh olehnya. baju-bajuku kebanyakan kemeja unisex, dan juga aku mengenakan jam tangan yang lebih cocok digunakan pria. di penghujung kelas 8, awal-awal kelas 9, aku mengenal kpop. aku mulai mendalami DBSK. aku mengunduh video-video mereka, lagu mereka, gambar-gambar mereka. memantau segala berita terbaru, dan juga meng-catch up berita-berita lama mereka. melahap segala artikel tentang mereka. sampai-sampai aku hafal di luar kepala fakta-fakta tentang mereka, dan bahkan mampu membedakan member hanya dengan melihat punggung tangannya saja. yeah, aku menjadi seorang fan DBSK, Cassiopeia. DBSK banyak mempengaruhiku. aku menjadi lebih lembut, mulai menyenangi warna-warna pastel, blus-blus, bersikap lebih sopan. DBSK menginspirasi segala hal bagiku.
ketika SMA, aku masih bersifat separuh tomboi (mungkin sudah bawaan sejak orok). namun seiring dengan berjalannya waktu, aku menjadi lebih feminin. banyak teman-teman smp yang kagum terheran-heran, dan deras pujian mengalir padaku. entah kenapa.
pepatah itu benar, lingkungan mengambil andil yang besar dalam membentuk dirimu. siapa band favoritmu, siapa temanmu, inspirasimu, apa film yang kau tonton, apa buku yang kau baca, majalah apa yang kau beli. dan pada akhirnya, di akhir perjalanan ini, kau tidak perlu lagi mencari-cari jati diri.
kau adalah jati dirimu.
Label: life
Senin, 18 Februari 2013
sundak beach side camping @ 02.13
hello people what's up
today i skip school because i'm having a really terrible flu and cough and fever yesterday right when I was in debate competition. so today I'm letting my body to have a break =)
so yeah i've been so unproductive today, i had two short-naps! whoa. so to diminish the guilty feelings i have for being so unproductive today i will post about a camping i had with my family last year! cheers!
28th December 2012
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SUNDAK BEACH SIDE CAMPING
we left jogja at afternoon, and got trapped in horrible traffic jam because it's the end of the year.
so we reached the beach area at about 5 to 6 p.m. it was close to maghrib.
sunset from the edge of indrayanti beach. taken from car.
we took some walk on indrayanti. at first we intended to build the tent at the side of indrayanti beach but that was not possible after seeing that the beach was really close to the sea.
beautiful cliff sillhoutte
hi it's morning already c:
but the moon's still shining as glorious as ever
radya. papa. mama.
radya's helping a local seaweed-picker
and then there's me. boo.
a tiny sailor boat far far away
sweet
look at my finding! an arachnoieda!
poor, poor naked snail. it kept getting washed by the wave and omgosh it's too cute it has a jelly-like texture and really really slick like lele. i wish i could find a decent snail shell for you :<
bare tree branches stab into the air . lol random.
the poorly-built tent hahaha! it didn't even qualify to be slept in! however dad and mom chose to slept at gazebo near the tent. and if you notice, there's another tent behind ours. and that tent was really strong and looked cozy and all. well, don't you dare to compare with ours -3-
i love bare branches.
ready to leave
kissing sundak beach goodbye
Label: life
Jumat, 04 Januari 2013
aku suka gambar ini, entah kenapa. @ 19.51
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where has my sanity gone? @ 18.45
have you ever been looked down by someone who's younger than you?
I have.
It happened yesterday.
It was cloudy afternoon after a heavy rain poured all over the city, leaving small breezes.
Still, I had to wear my cheap blue plastic raincoat; the one that you can buy in the nearest indomaret. I drove myself from the bookstore to a publishing shop, which I've entered before to give the data that would be printed as some posters. I walked into the shop, still wearing raincoat (apparently, i have no sanity), bcs I thought that this wouldn't be long. But I was wrong, my order hasn't been finished yet so they asked me to wait. Omgosh I'm so embarassed at the moment. It seemed like everyone turned their heads to my direction and whispered something among themselves. Gosh. I didn't even know why I took this embarassing action at the first place... I could go back to the parking area and took off the raincoat but no, I sat in the waiting area shamelessly, not bothering that I caused the shop's floor became slippery. One of the employees even almost got slipped.
And then it happened.
I turned my head to the family sitting behind me, my eyes caught the girl was staring at me in unpolite manner, disapproving look, like she looked down on me cause I wore my cheap raincoat to the shop!!! Then I narrowed my eyes at her, giving her my scariest glare, and then blurting 'What are you looking at?!' in English. Ermaigaawd. I didn't realize it coming. It just happened like that. And guess what that girl did next? She scoff-snorted and looked away.
Oh please.
And for a moment I thought I know how does it feel to be a Luna Lovegood.
And Luna can have my salute for ignoring every mock/satire/innuendo/tease that she got.
I have.
It happened yesterday.
It was cloudy afternoon after a heavy rain poured all over the city, leaving small breezes.
Still, I had to wear my cheap blue plastic raincoat; the one that you can buy in the nearest indomaret. I drove myself from the bookstore to a publishing shop, which I've entered before to give the data that would be printed as some posters. I walked into the shop, still wearing raincoat (apparently, i have no sanity), bcs I thought that this wouldn't be long. But I was wrong, my order hasn't been finished yet so they asked me to wait. Omgosh I'm so embarassed at the moment. It seemed like everyone turned their heads to my direction and whispered something among themselves. Gosh. I didn't even know why I took this embarassing action at the first place... I could go back to the parking area and took off the raincoat but no, I sat in the waiting area shamelessly, not bothering that I caused the shop's floor became slippery. One of the employees even almost got slipped.
And then it happened.
I turned my head to the family sitting behind me, my eyes caught the girl was staring at me in unpolite manner, disapproving look, like she looked down on me cause I wore my cheap raincoat to the shop!!! Then I narrowed my eyes at her, giving her my scariest glare, and then blurting 'What are you looking at?!' in English. Ermaigaawd. I didn't realize it coming. It just happened like that. And guess what that girl did next? She scoff-snorted and looked away.
Oh please.
And for a moment I thought I know how does it feel to be a Luna Lovegood.
And Luna can have my salute for ignoring every mock/satire/innuendo/tease that she got.
takes off against the wind, and not with it
This is my forte. I shall write what I want, post thoughts, inspirations, pretty much anything that comes to my mind.